Me and my life

This is a small tale when I abandoned everything to chase a romantic dream I was praying, might change my life for the better. Even if I had no Idea what would make me happy. I looked at friends who seemed happy with their lot and felt picky and ungrateful, because I knew I was ridiculously fortunate and I couldn’t help wondering. I guess I was in a “ what – the – hell – am – I – doing “ crisis. Fighting back cynicism, pessimism and every negative ism in the dictionary. Only desperation made me stand on my ground. I can’t stand girls but I’ve always been independent, from going to the movies and doing anything else by myself. But I was starting to think, there was something wrong with me. I’d had loads of girlfriends, but there was always some vital chemistry missing. Was it too much to ask for a smart, funny and, thus, sexy girl who adored me. I wasn’t looking for Scarlett Johansson look alike, I simply craved the company of someone who would make me think and laugh and feel. The process went something like this : Meet Miss potential ; fall head over heels in lust, love or both. Turn into performing puppy, do anything to render myself adorable and to win points rather than just be me. Struggle to maintain my independence, start to dislike what I have become but by this time it’s too late.



And now what..? I feel like I am at the drama, the tale sounds so melodic yet pathetic.















Monday, April 25, 2011

ARUS

Banyak yang bersabda "Jalani hidup bagai air mengalir" tapi kerap kali kita lupa akan kemana arah air itu mengalir. Ke daratan ?? ke semak belukar ?? ke samudra raya ?? atau malah nyungsep ketepian jurang ??
Sering kali kita terlena, ikuti arus akhirnya terseret. Sering kali kita tak belajar pada penghuni air yang selalu waspada akan bahaya yang datang akibat di bawa oleh arus tenang. Jika ancaman mengendus, mereka langsung berenang secepat kilat melawan arus.


Banyak yang bersabda "Jalani hidup bagai air mengalir" Namun lupa bertanya kepada si pembuat aliran dan akhirnya kebingungan dalam putaran arus.


Berhentilah dan lihatlah sejenak saat di ombang ambingkan derasnya aliran. Bertanyalah terus pada-NYA, kompas-NYA akan mengarahkan kita ke arus yang membuat kita hidup.
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